as i write this, i continue to feel nauseous and loopy from the occurences of this morning. it was a spinal tap, formally known as lumbar puncture. and it definitely is one of the more painful things i have undergone thus far. i make it a point to say, one of the more physically painful. emotionally, well yes -pain just doesn't randomly evaporate into thin air. but i had a weird feeling of joy and pain. combined. it was strange, yet satisfying.
i heard that the girl, a cowering fourteen year old, had terrible metastasis. she has a 90% chance of mortality despite transplant. so i'm not sure, if i should go ahead at this point. may be i should wait and give it to omeone who has a higher survival rate. i'm confused. and sad. and despondent. i wanted the little girl to live. oh well.
lab has been going very well. lots of numbers to deal with. people. moods. sprigs. emotions. arguments. laughter. spices. eye balls. fingers. nails. and scents.
and a lot of science
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